I lie in the darkness listening to the sounds of the night around me. My head spins with thoughts, fears, possibilities and solutions. I reach for you, but you feel so far away even though I lie close enough to feel the warmth of your body beside mine. Confusion rules my over-crowded mind.
There was a time when reaching for you was easy. What happened? Where did we go?
My love still burns in my chest but now I can feel it seeping into the back of my throat where it joins the flames of un-shed tears.
Is it possible to choke on love?
My heart aches for your touch as I listen to the sounds of your slumber. I long for the peace of sleep, but there seems no peace for me. Even as I feel my mind begin to float free of my body, the dreams begin. Trapped in darkness, running from things unseen, dodging hands I can feel reaching for me as I flee into the night. Even the moon has turned her face from me as I fly alone through the forest of my fears.